喜欢一个人真的有那么难吗？

痛苦。。。真的好痛苦~~为什么喜欢一个人非得这么辛苦~
我......受够了. 好累~~真的好累。
喜欢找理由sms他~可是有怕他没有回我。不顾一切就这样的Sent过去....
Sent了过后又开始担心他到底会不会回我简讯.开始回想一堆烂东西....
喜欢关心他....但他却不知道....常常看到一些自己不喜欢看到的画面....常常看到他跟一群女生在那边闲聊不知不觉
会觉得很讨厌....不想跟他讲话...这到底是什么感觉?我只知道这个感觉让我觉得好痛苦...
朋友已经告诉我一些事了....刚开始我不想去接受....可是现在我接受了....我也有一重想法就是,我不管...我只知道我喜欢他...没想到这样做会让我好痛苦....我到底要怎样做.放弃?继续?还是.....怎样???心情好混乱...好乱好乱.....担心这个担心哪个.....怕这个...怕哪个...不敢说...全都是只怕连朋友都做不成,才憋着不敢说...我真的好佩服那种很有勇气的女生,被拒绝也没事,不会害羞的那种.....为什么我就是没有哪个勇气?我有的話不知该有多好.喜欢却说不出口.我好希望他知道...我好希望他会喜欢我....不过,如果他真的有女朋友了...我不想当他们的第三个人(第三者太难听了)......我现在到底该怎办?我只知道我累了...我现在才发现喜欢一个人真的好难,好痛苦....
人就说“男追女隔着一座山,女追男隔着一成纱布”我觉得这句话....这句话是假的...

~“I pretend I don't Like you SO that I won't lose you as a friend.”~
All is about Pretend....
Pretend this word relly can kill me off....

Sad~today quite bad mood

today dunno why...I saw something and some attitude and some pircture i got so angry..totally mad.
I told him I hate him..but it just kidding only~~haix...who knows he relly dont talk to me...== he dunno how we prepare those thing to him and...how am I hardly prtotect that thing to make it still alive and perfect haix...and now?today...just now??wad la!!do that much then wad i get?haix....I get sadnes and ignored.
and after arrived home...i opened facebook and played some joke with my frend...but he get mad..== and.....I dunno he is stil mad at me or not!becus he too hard to understand ler...haaix...to day so shit la~today so badluck and.....irritating and annoying