了解,明白。

多一个星期又有一个小生命要诞生了。那就是我姐的儿子。
看着我姐肚子慢慢的膨胀算一算9个月就这么的过去了。
我快要当阿姨了。说起来还真快...
时间流逝的好快呀~




从我懂事以来，每天所发生的事情每一件我都记在心里，不管是好事或坏事.
明白了很多世上,人们的心.可怜的，好心的，坏心的，现实的，等等。
好人不是那么好当的。坏人却满街上都是。
但是，坏人总是比好人还来得好过，幸运。
好人总比坏人还来得狼狈。




有看过吕洞宾，牡丹仙子与紫玫瑰仙子的爱情故事吗？
虽牡丹花不比玫瑰花来得美丽但它总是有个一颗很善良的心。玫瑰花虽然真的很美丽但它的心肠就像它自个儿的身体一样多刺,狠毒~
玫瑰仙子为了抢夺吕洞宾而不折手段，一直拆散吕洞宾与牡丹仙子，让可怜的吕洞宾苦苦等了牡丹仙子4世，追了她4生4世，才换来一生的夫妻命。
牡丹花的确不美丽，盛开的时候也不能比玫瑰美,但重要的是她的心肠好。
玫瑰花虽然是花中里最美的花但它却拥有一颗自私与狠毒的心。就
像他身上的刺，每一个刺都是在伤人。




在吕洞宾，牡丹仙子与紫玫瑰仙子的爱情故事。牡丹仙子却比玫瑰仙子还来得美丽，温柔和一颗很好的心.
因为爱不到吕洞宾而妒忌的紫玫瑰仙子为了狠刀夺爱却用尽了一切办法要把吕洞宾给强了回来，并且设法想
牡丹仙子给害死。到后来紫玫瑰自食恶果。为她自己所做的一切而得到应有的报应。


在看完这剧故事，当我的侄子懂事了后，对于感情的事我只会教他一句，那就是
“世界上越是美丽的女生心肠就越是狠毒，骄傲，娇生惯养。看人不能只看他的表面，而也是要看她内心的"心"是否跟他的人一样美丽，还是只是像玫瑰花一样只能看，碰不得”

What to do?!?

我應該怎麼辦....
好好的一個生日卻被那個Catherine罵了一頓.
你問我為什麼...原因就只能用一個字體來形容--錢!!
那個course是3個月Rm3500不過我只付了500所以照他的表我是應該在October 10給錢...
不過之前都忙著謝師宴的事情,就常常不去上課了...那個課程的課.已經很多次沒去了,我不止那個Inter-Excel沒有去,連我的Piano Class我也差不多都沒上到了...
今天,我為了不遲到我1.30就從家裡出發,到komtar只有兩點,我就在巴士站做了半個小時...才搭巴士去上課...
好好一個生日,本來就很普通的一天...竟然變成非常"特別"得一天...我在我生日當天,流淚了.你問我why?
就..Catherine scolded me because of the fees = =''
罵得我好像沒有錢付那個學費..真的罵得我好慘...Not responsible...Suka-suka就來上課 suka-suka就不來,藉口..說我找很多藉口...我不是藉口我是本來都有事情做..11月27號,我有搭巴士到那邊上課,不過就因為很嚴重的賽車擋我到komtar的時已經很晚了.那我就不去了.因為如果我再搭巴士的話到那邊他們也差不多要下課了.回到家,我有用我姐的手機sms他(catherine)老實講,我真的很懶惰再向他交代些什麼了..因為他都會吧它當成是我的藉口.
講了等於沒講...本來就很猶豫不決不懂還要不要去上課,又加上爸爸的反對頭跟痛了...上那個課並不容易...上那個課壓力真的很大很大...加上環境,朋友都不熟..更害怕了...
原本以為不顧爸爸的反對就去吧它給讀完...不過經過昨天的"罵"我想...我還是再想想看了.好不容易的把那個恐懼給慢慢的減少...現在我的顧慮又再來了...我的恐懼又提升了...
空姐是我的夢想...不過這個class對我真的是太沉重了.不是我給不起..實在我的父母都很忙...
常常都為這個東西在煩...
如果當你們走到前方有兩條路口的時...你們是否回不會猶豫到底要走左邊好還是右邊好~
現在的我就是如此...
被罵了,還是依然的到回去讀,還是聽爸爸的安排回印尼還是台灣去繼續升學?
你們告訴我該怎辦好嗎?我快要瘋掉了...最後他還說你去想想..明天不用來也沒關係.
這句話...讓我想了很久.......到底是什麼意識...因為在我頭腦的意識是負面的.
所以我到底該怎辦...我時間不多了.

氣死我了...

今天...剛才.....剛剛.....
真的氣死我了!!!
12點就開始準備要到LG,Inter-Excel上課...1.30就開始等巴士....
天氣很熱....炎熱....一直等,等到2.36分從我家!!我家!!才有巴士....
又很熱....結果....就這樣搭上了那台巴士..還以為一切都會很順暢那這樣我就可以順利的
搭上第2的巴士,誰知道....誰知道!!!arghhhhh............
竟然給我塞車!!!!從昨天就開始塞車,誰知道!!竟然今天也還再塞!!!哇塞!!!!==''
到了komtar你知道已經幾點了嗎!?!竟然已經...已經....3.30!!根本就來不及了!!
最後,不去了...我去Prangin走走~~因為再去等下一台巴士的話...根本浪費時間...到那邊
也要4.00 了...根本不用上了....一個人走....去1st Avenue看看....然後最後就回家去了~~
那個賽車真的讓我很很很很痛恨他!!!真的是氣死我了!!!

I'm so.....so.....so miss him~~but.....

Well,after back from school I "forget"to change my uniform and started to browsing..
hehehe.......and playing facebook ofcourse~wahahaha.....
and watching tv also~~hehehe.....
er....last,it started to rain and I also feel lazy to take a bath....becuz so Cold...
hahahahah.........
and finaly I saw a blog link on Shao Peng msn,I opened it...Wow,I feel so happy tht he finally find some one that he relly loved..Iam so glad about it... ^^
at the same time,when I read all wad Shao Peng wrote on it,I got 2 feeling...First Finally I know that when I was with him,he didn't relly love me...as I said Iam just his sand bag,second I'm just a people who just pass by his life.After I read it into deeply He relly loves his girlfriend so much and at this time He make me so miss someone...and,there its go my imagination~hahaha....but those imagination always appear on my dream....I relly miss him so much~~wad will my fate be?will my dream come true?hahaha.....only god knows it~
from the bottom of my heart I just only could say that I relly miss him so badly....

Sad

Its a holiday week for me....
alone at home becus my family is going to Genting...
and....i am just so like that...nothing change...
Just now I heard that he was injured in this morning...well is not injured just a bit accident...
but iam so worry about him...and i just realise that i care him so much....
but...I guess I must stop to thinking of him and stop care bout him becus I just heard tht he has girlfriend already...My worry make me don't think that much took my phone and sms him...but havent delivery...
Is time can help me to forget bout him?because we are going to graduate....
after I sms him...I just relly realise that I care and love him so much....but wad to do now?I can't tell anyone is him...because its a important secret for me...Just like iam to carefull about this thing...Dont want to let him know that i Like him...Because I want to protect him from all the gossip that may be someone will tell him or make him pissed off one day....I want to keep this secret forever even bring it in into my grave when I die...as long as he will happy then Iam ok...
Well I never had a dream come true...and I dont apreciate it...just want to wish him al the best and live happily~

喜欢一个人真的有那么难吗？

痛苦。。。真的好痛苦~~为什么喜欢一个人非得这么辛苦~
我......受够了. 好累~~真的好累。
喜欢找理由sms他~可是有怕他没有回我。不顾一切就这样的Sent过去....
Sent了过后又开始担心他到底会不会回我简讯.开始回想一堆烂东西....
喜欢关心他....但他却不知道....常常看到一些自己不喜欢看到的画面....常常看到他跟一群女生在那边闲聊不知不觉
会觉得很讨厌....不想跟他讲话...这到底是什么感觉?我只知道这个感觉让我觉得好痛苦...
朋友已经告诉我一些事了....刚开始我不想去接受....可是现在我接受了....我也有一重想法就是,我不管...我只知道我喜欢他...没想到这样做会让我好痛苦....我到底要怎样做.放弃?继续?还是.....怎样???心情好混乱...好乱好乱.....担心这个担心哪个.....怕这个...怕哪个...不敢说...全都是只怕连朋友都做不成,才憋着不敢说...我真的好佩服那种很有勇气的女生,被拒绝也没事,不会害羞的那种.....为什么我就是没有哪个勇气?我有的話不知该有多好.喜欢却说不出口.我好希望他知道...我好希望他会喜欢我....不过,如果他真的有女朋友了...我不想当他们的第三个人(第三者太难听了)......我现在到底该怎办?我只知道我累了...我现在才发现喜欢一个人真的好难,好痛苦....
人就说“男追女隔着一座山,女追男隔着一成纱布”我觉得这句话....这句话是假的...

~“I pretend I don't Like you SO that I won't lose you as a friend.”~
All is about Pretend....
Pretend this word relly can kill me off....

Sad~today quite bad mood

today dunno why...I saw something and some attitude and some pircture i got so angry..totally mad.
I told him I hate him..but it just kidding only~~haix...who knows he relly dont talk to me...== he dunno how we prepare those thing to him and...how am I hardly prtotect that thing to make it still alive and perfect haix...and now?today...just now??wad la!!do that much then wad i get?haix....I get sadnes and ignored.
and after arrived home...i opened facebook and played some joke with my frend...but he get mad..== and.....I dunno he is stil mad at me or not!becus he too hard to understand ler...haaix...to day so shit la~today so badluck and.....irritating and annoying